Good evening Susie.

 Hello Virgil and Sarsha. It’s great to finally speak with you.

 Let us begin by expressing our pleasure at the manner in which you both have taken on board and utilised the guidance we have already provided. You are both learning that the frequency and the content of our sessions is dependant upon your ability to hear and assimilate what we offer. In other words, you grow your own experience rather than have it bestowed upon you. Through experiential grounding of our theory you bring it into being and consequently quite literally open up to new levels of self awareness. This heightens your vibration, giving you access to information which would before have been outside of your sphere of notice. Equally, your physical experience provides valuable feedback to the higher realms, meaning together, we are able to articulate and translate profound knowledge into meainingful and usable instruction. This should serve to reinforce your true creatvity around creation of your life and make tangible where your hand is present in all your manifestations. You are also breaking ground for others to follow, so we urge you to continue to observe your life and responses diligently.

 Yes this evening has come about in a very interesting way and I now feel more excited not only about what you are going to channel but also what we have discovered within ourselves.

 Following the guidance of the last newletter, both of you readily identified the physical challenges that were emerging and understood the need to uncover the beliefs that had brought them to life. You were both a little embarrassed by the physical aspects, since it was a recurring theme and, on the surface might be construed as a little predictable, maybe even trite. Yet the fact that such situations have punctuated your lives, with varying intensity and outcomes, clearly demonstrated that at their source must lie an 'addiction' belief since you had obviously truly failed to relinquish the manifestation of it over some time. So despite your ego judgement, you both truly immersed yourselves in circumstance and consequently identified the feelings below the surface. As is often the case with the two of you, your source beliefs were similar and orbited around the notion of control. Typically though, you both were engaging an experience of opposing polarity around control.

 For one, control was being played out as a lack of self control, the sense of despair or failure when one feels 'out of control' and a victim of circumstance while the other tried on the aphrodisiac of feeling 'in control’ of self and the heady experience of feeling powerful and above circumstances that cannot touch you. You both recognised the patterns as invisible auto-responses and quickly balanced the expression of control by dealing with the physical representations as a belief addiction rather than a physical addiction. Within that freedom of choice you discover a well of untapped motivation for change and you gladly embrace a new way of being. It is easy in such circumstances to feel victorious, like a milestone has been reached, and indeed it has. Yet, growth is never about destination but about exploration. Soon you find that despite your surface assumptions around completion, there seems to be something swimming around your periphery ready to strike, and so it does. The next level of awareness is the spiralling inward; the search for greater strength that lies only in greater self awareness. If you know and accept this fact, then your manifestations will take you less by surprise.

 Without a doubt.

 To this end, both of you have manifested situations that provide you with opportunities to look at the entire picture of control, encompassing both polarities. Following the ego's linear approach to growth, you consider that in the exploration of lack of control versus being in control of self, you have navigated the polarity of control and successfully balanced it. You have enjoyed the fruits of that campaign too, manifested physically and hopefully it reinforced the true value of balance and the reward inherent in pursuing it in all aspects of life. It feels like success, as though another invisible veil has been exposed and you can tick off that lesson. Yet control, like all foundation beliefs, has a far reaching effect. There is more to learn, and it must be done via experience. Suddenly your resolve begins to shake, yet on the surface nothing has changed. You feel the old control (or lack) patterns emerging, but you are now conscious of them and choose not to falter. Still there is an uneasiness as the next layer of control has revealed itself to you. You have encountered energy where you have both allowed yourself to be controlled, where you have surrendered power. Sometimes under the guise of supporting others, of being who they need you to be, of not being truly present in your own beingness, or any combination of these and more.

 Of course, you give your power away not in a grand gesture of generosity, but instead in a habitual belief about who you are, and where you fit. The giving away of power, by allowing yourself to be controlled, even if you merely acquiesce in the most vague and surface manner, is still an ego identification and a belief that must be released. To this end, both of you encountered situations where you needed to detach from others. You fight this necessity because it goes against so many of your ego concepts, yet this is only because you associate detachment with inaction, aloofness maybe and even selfishness, or worse abandonment.

 This tells me and yourself that you have a void to repair here, around your definition and belief system of what detachment means. While you fail to detach, you will fail to grasp control and will therefore never truly understand the notion of creating your own reality. Giving power away to others will draw you into to difficult realities that you need not venture down. You will have a great many opportunities coming forward for many varied realities and it is absolutely ESSENTIAL that you are able to detach from those that do not serve you. IF you feel attached to others you will be unable to choose apart from them. Not because there is a cause and effect reality relationship, for every moment is one of free will, but instead because your reality faithfully follows your beliefs and if you give away your power, then you literally give it away in that moment and are so powerless – literally, if this makes sense to you. I break for a question.

 Yes it makes sense. I feel as if the detachment from others I have experienced this month, at this point though, is somehow an aversion to look within and follow that journey.

 Yes I agree with you. You are detaching on the surface ego level. This is where notions of detachment being an unsavoury experience stem from, because you detach from the surface trigger which is usually sourced from a physical object, person or event. The manifestation of it is of course your co-creation; detaching at the surface often just puts the creation of it outside of you, onto the 'thing' that you are attempting to not get involved with. Detachment can only come AFTER you have identified where you are actually BOUND to the event.

 If detachment comes before you make that connection, then you are simply avoiding the trigger. When you identify where your ties are to a person for example, normally you will initially identify their issues first. This is where we often attach ourselves to the event on the surface and in the physical, trying to help them ‘overcome their stuff'. This is misguided of course. The step you need to take is to fix yourself; it is the only action on which you can be sure you must act. Once you have your 'stuff' identified, then you should be in a position to detach from the trigger, and stand in your power face it down so to speak. Detachment does not mean you cannot assist another that may be co-creating with you. It just means that you are not assisting them in a veiled attempt to make yourself feel better. In other words to 'fix the trigger' .Instead fix yourself and your beliefs. Does this makes sense to you?

 Yes it does.....it makes so much sense, yet I still need reminding of it.

 Yes because you weren't ready to create your life from this depth, the process is evolving; this is your next phase. You should now be able to see clearly the pathway that has evolved since we first said, "I choose to be in my feeling body". (second lesson of YBL)

 Yes I did have a little chuckle when I read that! Times have changed thankfully....

 Detachment has not been a subject covered beyond the ego reckoning of it because it is a subtle way in which we avoid responsibility. To grasp therefore its negative effects on self mastery one does need to be an excellent observer of life and be fully prepared to look in the mirror. You are both immersed in readiness for this phase so you will master it.

 Excellent.....the concept has certainly got me thinking particularly about my experiences and responses this month. So there is much more to come around this concept?

 You have identified the obvious ego belief systems. Now we seek to see the even subtler notions that have been with you all along but which you cannot see. Perhaps there will be more, but as always it will come with your experience of it. Detachment is particularly relevant because without it you are not truly free. You are a slave to your own ego roles, and you place responsibility for them at the feet of others who actually do not seek to control you in any conscious way, but whom accept your power more as a habit and aspect of the relationship itself. So it is about identifying all the subtle energy exchanges with others where you try to sustain them with your own energy, or alternatively try to sustain yourself by withholding. There is only one reality you can truly create and that is your own. At some point you need to live the self that is seeking expression through this new phase. Rely less on the contemplation of what is 'in store for you’ and instead consider what it is you wish to create.

To this end you will expose more of the triggers where you surrender your power, and therefore in that moment, for that now, period, render yourself powerless. This applies equally to when you accept another’s energy that builds you up, for example a judgement of superiority, for in that moment you are energising a belief that you have less and need others to sustain you. So your next now moment will reflect such inadequacy. Does this make sense to you?

 So where we feel the need to even subtly control or maintain power, we instead don't? We sit back and take in instead the energy of the situation and the meaning in our lives?

 Yes indeed, but in reality, for now, following our evolving approach, simple awareness around these energy shifts is sufficient. To feel the energy seeping away from you amidst circumstances where you feel it. To actually feel it while the physical thing is happening to trigger it, to as always identify the feeling. Is it fear, is it acceptance, the need to be loved, the inability to speak your truth?

 Excellent advice. Probably all of the above!

 To feel the energy leave you and feel how inadequate and powerless that renders you in that particular moment and in that particular event or encounter, to actually then know and accept the significance of giving your power away, and the impact that has on the creation of your life. Where you feel yourself feeling sorry for yourself and resenting others, contemplate why you find it easier, despite the discomfort to place control and meaning for your life in the experience of others. Where you feel actually that you are withholding or giving away your power to others because you can't meet them eye to eye and stand in your power because you feel sorry for them or sense that they are less fortunate or will be hurt, then KNOW that this is merely a smokescreen and you are NOT protecting them but misguidedly protecting yourself under the guise of your altruism. Does this make sense to you?

 Yes it does....my mind is racing as I contemplate all these situations. It is everywhere, in every encounter, in my life.

 Of course it is. It is everywhere in everyone's life. Turning ourselves inside out under the guise of fitting in to others expectations or roles. But all of it is a smokescreen for our failure to own our power, who we are in this now moment, and a failure to take responsibility for consciousness. If more of us owned who we truly are in each moment then the learning would manifest into the physical at a much more rapid rate. You would evolve in much more of a wave of growth to be followed to a point then grounded, than glimpsing the next wave. Jump on with gusto rather than with trepidation.

 There can actually be no dishonour in expressing the inner self; it is just learning to decipher it through the layers of ego judgement. Feeling the power move between relationships especially, is a fantastic way to truly experience why we often render ourselves without power and should explain therefore why so many flounder with creating our own reality. Attachment to others or detachment from our own process simply removes the source of creative power in our lives. It removes your true loving source from your life and as such it will be refected in your creations which would be a menagerie of the ideals and beliefs of others as we attach ourselves to their foreign journey coupled with a smidge of our own selves, overlaid with all the rhetoric of the new age. Creating your own reality is not as complicated as it would seem. You cannot do it though where the source of your life is occupied elsewhere so to speak.

 Do you have any questions?

 I think you have really spoken tonight of what has troubled me most about my life for a long time.......all the "little" things inherent in my daily interactions which are easily dismissed in the moment and not contemplated until they get bigger. What you have said tonight rings so true with me that I can hardly wait to begin my observations around the feelings in my interactions. Truly a month to live and experience! I look forward to this.

 Yes it is timely for both of you and each can expect ample opportunities to stand in your power through encounters, for as you have said, it exists everywhere. You will learn that to hold your power too does not necessarily involve taking action in the physical, but sometimes it might be. You will learn, once again that there can be no 'one size fits all' response, but that when you stand in your power, the most suitable response will manifest from within, for your Source is not occupied in attaching to or suppressing from the reality of another, if this makes sense to you.

 Yes. The notion of "standing in your power" has been spoken of so often yet feels entirely unexplored to this level.

 Yes it has. This is because it has been contemplated at an ego level which encounters life from the position of polarity which equates therefore, standing in your power to represent opposition. It may represent at times opposition, but it is not necessarily the case at all. If you feel that holding your light for instance, translated to standing in your power must mean you oppose earth changes, like you avoid them or stand above them, then you are not standing in your power for you have already created your future response and will respond in that manner as a belief system as opposed to an expression of soul creativity in the moment of an encounter or trigger. Does this make sense to you?

 Yes it does. It feels at this point though as if my life is a minefield with all these responses and energy exchanges.

 So detachment therefore could also be associated with a detachment for everything you 'think' you know and begin by responding in the moment afresh. I agree but the statement that followed just gives you the way out of the mine field. It is truly beginning to open to the inner self as never before.

 It does.I will read it again for the fifth time now!

 Trust me you will need its counsel

 I will take that on board then of course.

 Not because of anything supremely bad or difficult, but because it is the next step in your growth and life will be more difficult if navigated from ego.

 Do you have any further questions?

 You know I'm sure I do but I will just let this month unfold as Sally will also. I dare say we will have some interesting encounters. I actually look forward to them though.

 Yes this is a wise choice, indicating that you already understand the nature of the learning in this phase.

 Thank you.

 And you should look forward to them, for they offer you all that you have always been promised and of which has always seemed just out of reach, and that is the power of your creative potential.

 This has been fabulous chatting tonight.....I think because I have realised exactly what you just said then. It is like this has been the missing link (for want of a better word) in my life for so long.......this phase is certainly exciting and timely.

 Indeed it is. And also for others, even though awareness will reach differing depths for people. I wish you therefore a very fond good evening. We would like to pick up the pace a little, notwithstanding the fact that your recent difficulties in connecting have represented the need to ground events and information of recent times. Though this is the point of awareness we were aiming for, so we have hope that the quickening will ensure you are ready for more information with less delay in between times, in your terms that is.

 I'm there........I would love to chat and channel more frequently.

 It will depend on the grounding of awareness as always and your joint ability to reach the thread as you did this evening so as to unravel it, so to speak, and allow the information to flood through your awareness. I am confident you have both also grounded that such awareness was certainly hovering around the periphery, with some of it actually conscious in a manner, even though it may not have extended beyond an awareness of a particular relationship. So continue to acknowledge such awareness so that you can plant the thread that later allows you to unravel it, if this makes sense to you.

 Good advice......yes we will.

 Be blessed.  Virgil

 Thank you so much. Much love to you also

Copyright Sally Mackay 2009